Change is a comin’
I can feel a change on the horizon. Something has to give and I hope it’s not my knees. This fat kid is at my fattest again and I’m looking at reaching an all new high on the scale, low in my life. With winter here in Alberta, and living away from home (We are trying to sell our house so we staged it and moved out) I can feel a depression descending upon me which is making it even harder to pull myself out of this hole I seem to have fallen in to.
I am lacking as a mum, a partner & a friend. I am slacking on my responsibilities, duties and even the things I take joy in. I don’t want to live this way anymore, I just have to figure out where to go from here…
And so I will take a baby step and promise to blog about it at the very least, I will report the good, the bad and the ugly. That’s about all I have in me right now, but at least it’s something.
The Good – I found a great article that made me feel better about being a mum which I encourage all parents to read: Don’t Carpe Diem
The Bad: I let my 10 month old eat a cookie her brother gave her because I was too lazy to get up and take it away from her.
The Ugly: I ate hotdogs fried in bacon fat for lunch.
Oh the shame.
And that’s it from this fat kid…
WTG J, at least your past the denial stage (which I think I’m still in), first step is admitting or something like that. I read the article and do believe it is true, I think a lot of times we put pressure on ourselves. We will get through this and I am glad you are going to blog about it – I did miss your funny humor. :) Hang in there, your not alone and have lots of support!
While on IP I have made Saturday “minor infraction” day. My first Saturday I had a coke zero. The following Saturday I deep fried some rutabagas to make “french fries.” Last Saturday I had a small bag of pork rinds. You have to allow yourself some concessions that don’t overly compromise what you are trying to accomplish. I saw your numbers, you do well, so don’t “flip out” over a minor faux pas or even a major one for that matter. None of us became overweight from one day of eating poorly. It came from a lifetime of it. The thing that sets you apart is that you are actively doing something about changing that and that is something to be proud of. The only other thing I can say is be encouraged that you have the power to have a positive impact on your children. Teach your son to give your 10 month old healthy things instead of cookies. Small things like that will keep your kids from having to go through what you and I are going through now. Keep your head up Fat Kid.
Thurge.
I cheated! And it was good – now I’m wondering if I could do it all over if I would….eat that piece of cake? Probably.